Write your wrongs, and make them right...

When did I learn that writing was one of my 'signature strengths'? 

It was in Grade 4, when my teacher announced to all the students that my stories and penmanship were extraordinary.  She was the first person who acknowledged my work and her positive words gave me so much confidence.  I excelled in my English studies all the way through high school, as a result of her sound tutelage and guidance.

When I started university, I had no idea what I wanted to major in.  Quite frankly, I was frustrated.  I knew that my strong suits were in sciences, languages, physical fitness and creative writing, but I had no idea how to fuse them all together to create one solid area of interest. 

Fast forward to present day--if I knew then, what I know now, I would never have lost my 'joie de vivre'.  I had such high expectations for myself that even I couldn't meet, I belittled myself for making mistakes and I lost so much sleep.  My health was compromised because I couldn't make concrete decisions.  I lived in my own head for a long time, and I didn't have faith in the words, 'everything will be ok'. 

Until, I started writing in a journal.  I always thought it was so hokey, to write thoughts down on paper that no one would ever read.  But to this day, I still refer to my 'tales of woe' and it frightens me that I went through most of my 20's with blinders on. 

Today, it's revelatory for me.  I marvel at my own fortitude and wisdom.  It's like, I already knew what I had to do all those years ago, but I was never truly ready to take on my 'self-worth project'.  So I wasted a lot of time.  I numbed my pain.  I pretended I wasn't really suffering.  Big mistake.

Even though I made a lot of wrong turns and got stuck, I turned things around and things got smoother.  When I try to remember what my 'light bulb moment' was, I can't for the life of me remember was the impetus was, but one day, I simply woke up.  The light was on, and it was dazzling.

The reason I enjoy writing in my blog, or composing daily status updates on Facebook is simple.  I love to make people feel good about themselves.  I like to zero in on all kinds of topics that are universal and relevant.  I want to share my vulnerabilities and weaknesses because I'm imperfect and flawed.  I want to help people see how priceless they are and how precious life is, no matter how bleak their situation might be.  I am on a quest to write about my wrongs, and make them seem right.  Through all of my ups and downs, I know that everything happened for the right reason. 

I could've chosen to stay stuck and use fear as my excuse for not making any progress.  But I was never satisfied with the 'status quo'.  I've always liked pushing the envelope, coloring outside the lines, getting into my discomfort zone, shaking things up, keeping things fresh.  I don't like mediocrity.  I strive for excellence, in everything I do.

I want to continue to inspire the people who seek my counsel.   Because I'm not afraid to shine brightly, anymore.  If you're reading this, be comforted by the idea that none of us are truly alone.  We must feel the entire spectrum of emotions to live a quality life.  So when your days are at their darkest, and communicating your feelings to someone isn't an option, try this:

Invest in a notepad or journal and write everything down in pen.

Write your wrongs.  I mean, get down to the 'nitty-gritty'. Because there will come a day when you're feeling 'on top of the world', and when you refer back to your journal, everything will seem right again.   You know why?  Because hardships and struggles are necessary--they are put in your path intentionally, so you can truly appreciate the good times when you have them.

Take it from me, it's a good investment of your time and energy. FEEL YOUR FEELINGS, never cower or hide from them.  Express yourself on paper if you can't do it in person. 
And revisit your compositions, from time to time.  You'll learn a lot about yourself, in the process..
I know how it feels to be at the bottom of the barrel and at the top of my game.  Writing my wrongs, was always the right thing to do.  It made me who I am today.

Strong.  Capable.  Lively.  Resilient. 

And to the Universe I say, "Thank you, for always having my back."